Monday, December 17, 2012

An Easy Decision?

I am excited and scared at the same time. I feel empowered yet so nervous. I am elated yet deeply sad. I taste joy and despair mixed in a strange concoction. I see dreams and and I also see nightmares. I am holding on and letting go in the same moment. I am celebrating one event and mourning another. I am as sure as hell and shakily unsure. I am strangely at peace in the middle of such restlessness.

I am  living and dying- both at once. 


  1. Do you know Puja we all have a disease---DIS EASE.Not a few people are schizophrenic as diagnosed, we all are, as by birth we are made of two independent parts. Bodily we have become one, ie yin and yan parts derived from mother and father but mentally we are unable to become one. So there is a constant tug of war. The balance that weighs us tilts this way and that way. Thank God a coin has only two sides ,and we can toss and decide quickly.A lot of honing and meditation and effort is required to go above all this. I am afraid I am a typical human and can not advice like God almighty, but can only say Yeh Zindagi Hai Jeeo Merey Lall.


    1. Nice advice mommy! And nice explanation. I value it.

      I am not resisting the change. Quite enjoying the process, but having a mom who opens my throat chakra, I end up recording all the ups and downs along the way.

  2. This is like a beautiful poem which you have written in prose. You can arrange the words in a poetic diction or can I do it for you? Its really a poem.... Chandrama's comments are very impressive.

  3. Please arrange as a poem Manikaji. Chandrama is my mother and she is super impressive.